I mount him

from behind—his moan

 

is fresh water

crying from the spigot.

 

Yes, I’ve pushed the Good

Book closed after the revelatory

 

sentence—hydrostatic, divine wisdom

bowing my heart. Have you?

 

You feel like you’re dying,

until you realize: no,

 

you’re just seeing

yourself for the first time. New

 

knowledge will do that. Pleasure

is information. My heart swells

 

like his penis as I pound

him into the mattress.

 

If he had wings, they’d be covered

with eyes, and they’d all be rolling back.

 

No, I’m not inside him.

Considering my lack, I press

 

my face into his feathers.

I’ve opened something I cannot close.

 

Is this okay?

I ask in a whisper,

 

and, you are so good,

pushing his head into the pillow.

 

All the eyes, seeing me, seeing me:

I perform myself a man.

 

He moans like a revelation.
A revelation’s promise is always a new name.

 

 

 

Daniella Toosie-Watson